UTP=hell...again

It would be a lifetime wish for me to get off from this morbid place. Knowing that i have to go back to hell brings my mood down all over again. Going back there, even though it's after one semester, is still so painful. First week here is all the same, and what's worst this place is killing me day by day, as it is to two person I know. The only refuge I seek here are my friends, but the idea of going back home for CNY cheers me up more. Sigh....but New Year is only for a week...and it's hell for me again. May God bless my soul. May he just take me to heaven....