Sometimes when I lose my cool, I really don't know the reason why, and when that happens, nothing pleasant will turn out. Given what happened lately, it really opened up myeyes to see and realize where I've gone wronmg and what should be done. I maynot be able to face this group of friends I'm so close to with thinking that I just took a point of no return that no differences are reconcileable. Yet, I was proven wrong. One of them confronted anf asked, are things gonna stay this way? Is that how I want things to be? Deep down the answer is no, but I know what was done can't be undone and given the ego sometimes, you just can't face thigs so easily. Yet, we agreed to talk things out. Much was mentioned, and I actually see all the small little mistakes which I took for granted and miscommunications could just leed to this big thing. Unconciously I took sensitive on somethings which they done to me, but not in the other way round. And I actually didn't know being a couple in the midst of them could make them feel awkward, despite trying my best to be casual.

Yet, this is still a turning point in life, where I just need to learn. Once again appology is all I caould say but all I can hope is this happened for a good cause. I felt touched by how they told about me, that I could be a great friend, because no one ever told me this before.

I know...things will just not be the same. And I really wish the past could still be the present and the future. I had a dear friend so close last year, that we did almost everything together, and all of a sudden things just changed this year. I do not really know the reason why, but given the chance to just work things out, it would be just great. That moment, I thought I found someone who could be a buddy throughout this 5 yrs here giving our best and the thought of it was just so pleasant. Time we spent was indeed good last year. In the room, I had no intention to stress you up, but you were just too quiet and that's why we were not talking.

Friends are just so important in human's life that sometimes, life just stops without them. Yet, misunderstandings happen on the way, but great frineds will still stick with one another given the chance to reconcile and to get over all the misunderstanding. True is the begining, but being a great friend is the ultimate goal of it.

Yes, and I wouldn't want things to be sour, but thinking back of the laughter and joy we had together, it does offsets all. I would want to look back when I'm older at the past and just cheerish the good old days we had together.